INDIA, MAC & FRIENDS

My prof compared Miley Cyrus to a Nazi. Just thought that one would be for the books. So, today was something else!

I just finished what I think was an interview for a possible internship in I N D I A. Yes, halfway across the world. I think I have the job since I've got a follow up. My only concern is money. I'm in intense debt since Peru because my parents didn't exactly do what they said they would. I would LOVE for this to be paid.. but how do ask if that's a possibility? They asked me if I had a budget.. ummm. Not promising. I'm gonna keep looking.
Changing my computer battery tomorrow. Bye bye paycheck. This is what I get. But this Macbook has been so good to me for 4 years.. time to treat it! Gotta back up my computer. I haven't been sleeping much, so I guess I have the time. 
A couple days ago, I had a spiritual awakening. The same day, I found out a friend of mine had been praying for me. Crazy. I seriously appreciate it. It's nice to know people care, y'know? 

Anyways.. Gotta go.

This Cover is my Jam

Betty Who - You're In Love

Salsa Job Hunting

Not what you think. Got an internship offer that's 2 months longer than I can do.. might not get it. Applying for a job I'm actually qualified to do, but across the world. Hoping I'll get it. Avoiding doing the last two questions cause they're a pain in the butt and I probably won't be getting the job anyways. And then I decided to learn Salsa dancing from a white male... at 2am. Totally casual..

Aside from that my day was pretty unusual. I decided to stay late at school and had an awesome time at Power to Change, met up with a girl I didn't know twice and while it was definitely awkward, I think we became better acquainted because of it. Met up with an old friend and caught up. Didn't hang out.. just caught up. Anyways. No too shabby. My sleep schedule is messed tho. At least I can now salsa naturally!

January's Ending

I've been slacking, and stressing, and for some reason.. today I've got my life together. My Grad applications are ready, did three assignments and handed them in on time. Oh, but I missed my class today. And I didn't go to the gym. I did get some awesome notebooks on sale. 

Spiritually, I realize I've been selfish. I've been expecting the church to provide for me and tend to my needs (/desires). Sorry.

I wish I was more together with my life. I wish I knew where this was going. I wish I could redo university. Fortunately I don't have that power. I'd probably mess it all up. Again. Enough with the regrets and sob story. Sorry.

I feel stagnant. Like, I have nothing going on in my life aside from school and work and church and I feel like I have no friends to hang out with, even though I have plenty of friends in my classes. I don't know. I feel so unsatisfied. 

EPIPHANY. Literally right now. Trying to fill the void with earth. He's calling me. SHoooooot. How did I not see this. How did I let it get so bad. Vanity, everything is vanity. Ecclesiastes 1:14 "I have seen everything that is done under the sun, and behold, all is vanity and a striving after wind."

LOLS.

3 days. That's a pretty good record, right? This is a lot harder than it looks.
So class started again. Kind of hating - Oh, I don't know.. ALL my classes. k like 2/5 of my classes. Less than half of my classes. A 4th year PoliSci class where it's 5 weeks of debates. Ummm no thanks. BUT no midterm, no final, no paper. NO PAPER. That never happens. I'll probably stick with it. Then I've got a night class, but it's one of the easiest classes. Anyways, enough with uni dramz. Onto other uni dramz. Master's application is due next week. I need to write a letter...yeah..

Onto personal issues. My walk with God is suffering. Rather than talking to my close friends about it, I find myself just telling other friends in Christ, but ones that I think are more accountable. I also think they're more mature and for some reason, they ask different questions I haven't been thinking about. I have talked to God about it. I have. Not as much as I should (but then again how much should I?) nor am I doing anything to pursue Him. I'm not about to DQ it up in here about my in depth feelings.

I Got My Life Back Together?

Super productive and yet unproductive today. I applied for some jobs, applied and spent actual effort looking into and filling out applications for summer internships and submitted one of two Master's applications. I also found a course to switch into while keeping my graduation requirements. Like whoa there. At the same time I successfully avoided a day at the gym, and managed to finish the 4th season of Arrested Development on Netflix. I almost got sucked into the House of Cards, but remembered my new addiction to Downton Abbey. Priorities, right? Still behind on my YouTube subscriptions.

I saw Wolf of Wall Street. DAYUM that movie was 18+ for a reason. I think I've gotten a bit more insensitive to the sexuality in cinema. Need to address and talk to God about that.

Didn't go to youth today because my sister was sick. Not sure if that was an excuse for my laziness today or if it was legitimate. I meant, I go without her on an almost weekly basis, but since she's home it's like we're attached. On top of that, CM pissed me off cause he wanted a favour and while I did say yes, that was before my sister got sick. Since I wasn't going out anymore I couldn't do that favour and then he pretended to care. Excuuuse me -  don't play on your concern for me when you're actually concerned for yoself. Let's be real. I'm not mad, I'm just ticked off. Lame choice of words, but accurate. I do feel guilty for not going though. I mean it seemed legit when it happened, but I also was asking for it. I kept checking to see if we were gonna go when it was only she who was sick. I mean I could've gone, not a big deal. Laziness consumes me. I almost didn't even write this. I figure I should at least let this resolution live for a week right?

Time to Get That Life Back Together

UGH okay, so real life (School) is coming back next Monday. UGH. I had plans for my break you know. I was gonna read spiritual and general books, get out and connect with nature (lame, but awesome), get healthy, be on that gym lyfe.. and yeah.. didn't really happen. and now we're back to school. Ew. Did I mention I also need a job? Current job just got slow after that wonderfully busy Christmas month.
Got a temporary driver's license today. Final test in a week! Freedom.

Not quite eventful today. Froze half my feet off because I missed my bus. Twice.
Haven't showered in a while. Should probably. TMI.

New Year, New Me - Not

So doubtful on the actual commitment that's about to go down right now. Okay, so my resolution is to keep a journal/diary thing. I bought a notebook. Then I remembered how much I hate writing. Like physical writing. It hurts my hand, I'm a baby.. I know. 

So let's update, shall we?

Recently I have: 

Applied for graduation: Goodbye Uni!
Applied for Master's programs: Hello more uni. Super skeptical on this, as my grades aren't what I thought they'd be. Meh.
Had my driver's license expire: Been meaning to schedule that test. Turns out other people book their tests too. Tons of them. On the day you need to do your test. Hmm.
Spent way too much money: Still paying off that trip to Peru (Sidenote: there was a trip to Peru!). Can't forget Christmas shopping/Boxing Day either! On the plus side, I've been working a ton, so that should cover it all up.
Joined a gym: This actually happened in December. Tomorrow, the gym'll be full of resolution makers. Bleh.
Been to CrossCon! Awesome experience. Not what I thought it would be, at the same time - not where I thought I'd be. Was a good eye opener to my initial thoughts on missions work and 'the call'.

Had Drama: (TLDR) High School BFF's being a bit dramatic because 'I don't miss her', I believe. Mutual friend informed me because she won't call me out on it herself. I texted her a bit, and it wasn't good enough AND she credited herself for that interaction. SO not into that dramz anymore and trying to let it go. 

Today: Movies. LOTR 1 Extended edition all day long, I swear. I'm trying to see the awesomeness that apparently everyone else sees. Wolf on Wall Street later today with the sister. Contemplating changing this blog name. It's kinda lame, and I was trying to be cool. Still am.