HBDCMH !

I actually try to hide this area of my life from this blog, because I wanted to focus on real life here. But Today, (or according to S.K time, yesterday) was SHINee member, Choi Minho's 19th  (N. American Age) birthday! My obsession with him is embarrassingly large, and I try to monitor it, but today is a special occasion!

Saranghae <3

I Did A Bad Thing.

I wanted to go skiing with some friends for a weekend in January, so I asked my parents expecting a flat out no. Unfortunately I actually waited too long to ask them and of course I got a no because they didn't want to pay for it and I didn't have a job to pay for it either. Yes, this is partially my fault. But I really wanted to go. So I told my friends I could go and last Saturday ran around town applying like crazy to these places. Luckily, the ski trip people only needed a $20 deposit, so I could pay for that before I even got a job. The next day, my dad tells me if I get a job before the ski trip, he'll pay for it all! :) But.. DUH-DUH-DUH-DUUUH, Just got an email, and they want the money by thursday. I can probably delay having to pay it all, but I'm hoping I get a job soon. I did have a prety good prospect on Saturday, at the library the lady gave me a number to call if I didn't hear from them in a week, so that's pretty good right? And I'm applying to a place that's hiring tomorrow.. actually, later today. With my McHorrible's experience, I should be a shoo-in right? :) Let's hope it all goes well!
I also have a back-up plan if I don't get the job in the next week to cover the cost.

But overall, I'm feeling the guilt big time. I just hope all works out before I need to cancel or explain to my parents why I'll be gone for the weekend. So not happening.

Wish me luck!

Love.

SIGH.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3pyBcq4iKWw 

Ladies & Gents, listen to this songgg.

I love it. I havent stopped listening to it since I first hear it. About a half hour ago. I like the story.

When All You Can Do Is Laugh.

I don't want to get into the details because i have about 10 pages of history to read if I want to be on time this week, so I'll be doing a list to explain to you what happened today (they seem to be my thing lately). Here we go boys & girls!
a) My best friend's birthday is this saturday. Our other BFF & I want to hang out with her but she goes to school in Ottawa. Our plan was to spend the weekend with her and have fun! Good plan except
b) my parents were former jail wardens in a previous life, and I asked, but it was a complete no. I then got yelled at for not doing the laundry and cleaning the bathroom even though I spend all my time on school WHICH is what they want me to do. This all happened on the phone on the way to school, so by the time I actually get there I'm in a bad mood and
c)went to the library after classes to study, where I missed 2 phone calls from my father who was rushing to get home to wait for some guy to fix the ticking noise our heater was making. He didn't arrive until 10PM. In his tiredness/Hunger/lack of patience, he left me & my friend without a ride and just as that happened, it
d) rained. Hard. And the wind blew, while we sat outside for 30 minutes waiting for the bus. By the time we arrived at the station waiting for a second bus to take us home, the bus that was supposed to take us, only stopped in the town right before ours. So we waited in a shabby little bus shack for 40 minutes waiting for the right bus. When this bus came, we ran for it (as the shack was not right next to our bus stop) and
e) soaked the sneakers I had decided to wear for ONCE in my lifetime. We get on the bus, drying off as we go, and my friend calls her mom so we know where to get off so she can take us home from the bus stop. 20 minutes later, we get off at the buss stop to find that her mom isn't there. She's still at the birthday party that's 10 minutes away. This leaves us
f) on a road at 8:35 pm but due to the season & weather change looks more like 12:45am in the pouring and wind-infested rain without bus shelter. By this time, I was delirious because I hadn't eaten since 4pm. I finished all my snacks and both bus stations had no place to buy food.

At this point in time, the music I was listening to (Ke$ha's We R Who We R) gave me an idea. So while we waited for her mom, I began to sing and dance my heart out and once my friend saw me, all I could do was laugh. My day was absolutely ridiculous. By the way I also

g) Missed GLEE. Well, 55 minutes of it.

Love.

Who REALLY got trained?

Wednesday night my parents picked me up from school. They were talking about the "bird in the back" and keeping it safe. I assumed they were talking about food. As in, they bought an expensive piece of meat or something and they were trying to decide where to store the frozen chicken or whatever it was at home. So we get home and my mom goes back to the car and pulls out a cage. In the cage: a bird. As in a pet. We haven't had a pet in so long, ever since the hamster catastrophe of '04. (My sister and I had hamsters. Hers tried to eat mine.) So we covered the cage, and went to bed. Thursdays I have a night class so I was home for the day. I woke up to what sounded like a mouse dying. I come downstairs, and there he is, our new pet bird, squawking its little heart out. I checked his food and water, then went to make myself breakfast. Of course, my presence excited him and he just never stopped. over the next hour I got so frustrated that I blasted the TV. He won. again. I then pulled out my laptop, played some songs and sang while dancing in front of my little enemy. He tried to compete, but oh no, I won this round. After that exciting event, I went up to take a shower. I guess he missed he because the whole time I was upstairs, I could hear him. I came down, refreshed and ready to fight, but he was quiet. I tried not to do anything that would excite him and played music quietly, watched TV quietly, and we had a good 2 hours of peacefulness. When my sister came home, I explained what I did to make him quiet, expressing my excitement of training him in silence! After  told her the story, I then realized that I had been the one who got trained. I was the one who had to be considerate of him, not the other way around. 

Depressed and ready to leave, my dad came home with a 'surprise'. He gave me a box and told me to open it. SURPRISE: another pet bird. Clearly they were of different types of bird. But, to my dad a bird is a bird.  He then put our new female bird in the cage, with my father's high hopes of mating. Come on, we are not pet people. We can't take care of one bird, much less two, and now he wants babies? Great. Fortunately, the new bird is a quiet one. She freaked out a bit at the beginning, but we're good now. This didn't quiet down, our original bird pet. He keeps squawking non-stop until now. I mean, I feel like I've adjusted, but now, frankly, I'm annoyed. They seem to be scared of my hands, and this morning I introduced our new pet to my amazing song & dance skills. Aha, she enjoyed that. 

Time to go, I'm moving upstairs so I can watch TV in peace. I better get a treat for being such a good owner.

Love.

Choi Minho, you beast.

Legal Lady

Alloooo My lovely online audience!

It was my birthday yesterday. Technically because today is now tomorrow, it was my birthday two days ago. I am now a legal adult in Canada (Khan-ah-dah). Wooo! I can now purchase all the lottery tickets in the world. Yay me! My father came home with 18 roses for me that day, as a jab that I decided not to have a debut (Filipino becoming of age ceremony. MAD partaay). But there are more pressing issues at hand. I also got $50 for nothing I guess. I also got a lot more "happy birthday!"'s at school than I expected. So that was a nice twist for me. Alrighty, now on to the more depressing. I failed my Economics midterm. I have 3 midterms in that class so this time I MUST pass or I have to drop the class, with no refund. I also forgot to rsvp for my commencement this friday. So I need to call them and see if I can still go. Ahaha, oh if my dad knew, I'd be so dead right now. So I have been studying quite hard! I am filled with economics to the point to where I make real life connections by accident. Yup. That's how sad it is. on top of that, this week I've gone to bed since Monday past 2am at the earliest. Sadness. But tomorrow morning, I GET TO SLEEP IN. Ahhh yes, the sweet sleep I have been drained of. But tonight, I will finish one sample mid term, because I still feel unprepared, and sleeep! (: The stressful life of an 18 year old.
Forgot to mention. DRAMAS! Sungyungwan Scandal! and Coffee House! So jokes. Okay I wanna sleep.

Love.

Happy Birthday You Lame-O.

FYI: This is about a girl crisis.

Today is his birthday. I didn't remember and I was doing fine, until I checked my Facebook. -.- 

Thaaaanks Facebook reminders. I don't know how I feel about him. But whenever I do, I can only think of the good things and how I used to feel. Do I say happy birthday? Maybe not. I mean, we haven't talked in forever. I hate stupid leftover feelings. Especially since he never knew about them to begin with. Too bad I have no idea what he looks like now. ALL his profile pictures are of bands, guitars, anything but himself. Even my Facebook stalking shows nothing. So I promise nothing, but I'm gonna say it here. 

a) Because you don't know who I'm talking about and

b) He'll never know either.

Can't decide if I'm happy or sad about the last one.

Hey Eric,

Happy Birthday. I know we haven't talked in ages, but I really hope you have a good time today! Lucky guy, it's even on a Saturday. Have fun (:

still.

Love.

P.S; Hope you saw it.

Good Girl Rule 1: Always Be on Time

As you know, I'm supposed to give off the appearance of the good girl. No, I don't have perfect grades, definitely not the perfect family, but what I do take pride in is in being on time. So imagine my discomfort and hyperventilation patterns when I find out that I'm late for my 2 hour tutorial! I broke the golden rule. I realized this because for some reason I believed that today was Wednesday where I have a one hour break in all my classes. Unfortunately, I spent my hour goofing around, exploring campus, and getting (TMI guy alert) free tampons from the women's centre. So when I walk by my tutorial class 10 minutes early, or so I thought, I notice that no one is outside waiting. So I decide to walk around till anyone else shows up. Then I look in the window to find my TA teaching.. And then it hits me. I whip out my itouch (where I stash my schedule) to quickly find out that yes, indeed, I AM LATE. 3 things happen:
1. Hyperventilation - how did this happen? What am I missing out on? Shouldn't I go in? I'm an hour late! Oh my gist my grades!
2. Freakout texting - my friend I was just with, my best friend. Asking them what to do, and
3. My decision to calmly walk by the class and into the other building to wait and talk to my TA after class.

I'm hoping to be able to sign the attendance sheet so that way I won't be deducted marks. But how am I going to get those notes! Oh my goodness.

So here I am, freaking out shaking with nervousness and waiting for 2 o'clock.
Wish me luck guys,

Love.

Boyfriends. And Stupid Teenage Jealousy.

So I got sent this on Facebook about an hour ago.

Girls its time for some fun again ! Make your status :

Champagne - if youre single

Mojito - if you have a BIG CRUSH

Tequila - if you're dating

Baileys - If you're married

Beer - if you guys just broke up

I'm single. Not that I have problem with not dating anyone at the moment. But, it did make me realize that after that, ALL my best friends statuses: TEQUILA.
This made me think: am I really that undesirable? I know, believe me, I KNOW that I don't need a man to be myself or be complete. But still. I just feel like a failure. But these things take time and I know that if i wait, things will get better. I mean, the worst that could happen is that I don't get a boyfriend.


I'm sorry if my self-consciousness is making you angry. but come on, you're reading a teen girl's blog. it was bound to happen.


I want someone for me. But not just for the sake of having them, more for the closeness you get, the friendship, and that deep connection that no one else can understand. I honestly feel so jealous of my friends. I want what they have. LOL I bet I sound like a cliche. I'm sorry for you guys, if you can't understand. But it's on my mind right now and this is my release. I hate that I'm Jealous. I don't want to be. Why can't I be happy with what I have? Human nature. Ugh.


Thanks for listening.


Love.

I don't get it.

You know in those troubled teen movies, how the guidance counselor says that it's because they come from a troubled home? How about those movies where the whole point is to open up to your parents? Tell them everything?
They don't apply to me. Not because I hate my parents or anything.
I just find that telling them that I have a problem does nothing for me. Last year my mom told me that a friend of mine was struggling in school. If I told my parents that, what exactly would happen? They couldn't help me with my homework. Trust me, I've tried. Math, science, geography. Nothing. It kind of posses me off. I mean, aren't they supposed to help you? Isn't that what parents are supposed to do?

Those movies make me pretty angry. Although their approach is to make the ideal family, isn't the whole point to make something relateable to the audience? Watching the perfect family up there on the big screen just sucks.

Love.

University Fair 3.0

So, I took my sister to the university fair today in town. Aha, that makes me sound like a hick. No, actually, I live in Toronto. So we to to the Metro Toronto Convention Centre to look for universities she might want to attend. In two years. Yup, she's a keener. So was I. This is the third time I'll have gone to get the free bags, lanyards, and highlighter pens that this wonderful fair has to offer. But, unlike myself, my sister does not get excited for these things. She didn't even look at the other schools! We spent about an hour and a half there max. I mean, yeah it's great that you know where you wanna go, but don't you wanna see what else there is out there?

Aside from that, there was a blue jays game that day. So along with seeing a million high schoolers, there were also the Jays fans. With the t-shirts, big fingers, and of course the face and body paint. Also, I saw the movie "Easy A" today. Very good! Funny scenes where I actually laugh? Yes please.

It was actually a pretty good day. Except for the fact that I had to wake up at 7 am. Haven't done that in a while.

Love.