I've been slacking, and stressing, and for some reason.. today I've got my life together. My Grad applications are ready, did three assignments and handed them in on time. Oh, but I missed my class today. And I didn't go to the gym. I did get some awesome notebooks on sale.
Spiritually, I realize I've been selfish. I've been expecting the church to provide for me and tend to my needs (/desires). Sorry.
I wish I was more together with my life. I wish I knew where this was going. I wish I could redo university. Fortunately I don't have that power. I'd probably mess it all up. Again. Enough with the regrets and sob story. Sorry.
I feel stagnant. Like, I have nothing going on in my life aside from school and work and church and I feel like I have no friends to hang out with, even though I have plenty of friends in my classes. I don't know. I feel so unsatisfied.
EPIPHANY. Literally right now. Trying to fill the void with earth. He's calling me. SHoooooot. How did I not see this. How did I let it get so bad. Vanity, everything is vanity. Ecclesiastes 1:14 "I have seen everything that is done under the sun, and behold, all is vanity and a striving after wind."
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